Post-binge thoughts

Wow. Yesterday I went wiiild with my eating - 3,500 calories wild! I didn't even know it was possible to each that much! Well, looks like it is. I have never tracked one of my binges before, preferring instead to pretend that they just "never happen". Well happened they did and now I feel like a whale and a half. I guess I should just chalk it up to a learning experience - now that I know how much I'm consuming, I'm going to cut - it -out - for - ev - er.

So, in terms of my January goals, I'm going to count last night as 2 high calorie days. That's what happens when you eat more than 2 times your daily intake - ice cream will be the death of me. So that brings me down to 7 of 10 high calorie days used - and it's only January 17th! Egads! Tonight is going to be high as well, but I can probably keep it within range if I:

1. Burn over 500 calories at the gym today;
2. Keep my calories low (hopefully go into the night at 1,300 calories - totally doable considering it's 11:10 AM and I've just had breakfast - God bless Saturday mornings); and,
3. Limit myself to 5 drinks over the course of the evening.

I've also found that I've had to make some adjustments to my daily routine to keep myself sane. For example, if I eat less than 1,500 calories per day (that includes about 100 - 200 calories from vegetables), I'm ravenous the next. Here is my new, updated plan:

1. Consume 1,500 - 1,700 calories per day - between 1,500 and 1,600 on non-gym days, and between 1,600 - 1,700 on gym days.
2. Work out 4 times per week - Sundays, Tuesdays (personal trainer), Thursdays (Spinning Class), and Saturdays.
3. Bring my lunch to work 2 times per week - I brought my lunch 3 times this week and it was great - delicious, nutritious, and fast - love it!
4. Sleep for 7 hours per night - espeically when I'm getting up at 5:30 AM to work out the next day.
5. Drink more water each day!
6. Walk more! --> Disclaimer: this will be hard to do when it's -25 C outside (yes, I do live in the coldest place on earth - not really, but feels like it with the windchill).

As for a weekly update, I actually had a pretty sh*tty week - one of my really good friends in the same industry as me got laid off and is now stuck in the States with a Visa that expires in 2 weeks and a lease that she has to pay for another 7 months. Horrible, horrible situation. I feel terrible for her!! It's really hit home for me, as well - what if I get laid off? What if I'm suddenly without a job? I've already earned enough to pay off my line of credit, so I'm good and covered for that. I also owe my Father X amount of $$$s, but thankfully the money I'll get back from taxes will cover the bulk of it.

Anyways, point of the story is: after hearing about my friends unfortunate situation, I've decided that I'm not going to move out by March 1st. Maybe April 1st, but even then, I want to have all my bases covered before I do. And I'm not just saying this for monetary reasons, either. If I was to get laid off, I would not want to feel tied to a place in Toronto - I would probably get up and leave on the next plane to Asia/Europe/South America. Or apply to Grad School. Or... or... so many things I could do! Please, God - don't let them lay me off!! But at least if it does happen I'll have a phenomenal back up plan - and the resources to make it happen.

Oh! And I've been in regular contact with the boy from Chicaaago. He's pretty cute - looks like I'm going to see him when I go down for training in Feb., too - keep your fingers crossed for me - that I'll still have my job in Feb. and that if I do, he'll still want to see me!!

Alright, have to get on with my day - lots to do, lots to do!